By the shores of the sea
Crumbling sands and foamy waves
I try to recapture the magic of that moment on paper
But the heat of my sadness
Melts the wax crayons in my hands
The myriad hues of blue
the verdant greens
the dazzling sparkle of the sands
the colours of my picture
coalesce
into a mangled black

Through small dark clouds

These few weeks have not been so easy. Every day I do my routine things, but my soul is tired now. It searches for peace, for gentleness... it searches for reasons to go foward in hope.
I don't know what I want and what I want I know I can't get. Depression can do this to you.
I am to from today:
To look for light and brightness
To forget about being afraid

waqt
har ek mushqil ki dawa hai waqt
kuch bhulaney ka
kuch naya paaney ka
andherey mein timtimata chota sa diya
hai waqt

Nothing much to do

Am suffering from serious withdrawal symptoms. My work is about to get over and I don't know what I'm going to be obsessive about. This project was a CHALLNGE - a call... Get up early, go to work, here's your work... cut out... finish and GO BACK HOME LATE
Without it all I am finito.

Why Hrithik?

Why do I like Hrithik?

Mmmmmm... There must be reasons but the primary ones are:

That Face - Unbeatable. Unsurpassed, incredible beauty... But for the stubble he would've beaten Aishwarya Rai hollow.

That humility. It's incredible. I have seen his interviews on TV, read some stuff. That guy talks as if that beautiful face of his hasn't registered at all in his psyche. He doesn't strut the big stuff... he is grounded... he genuinely enjoys his baby and the fact that he's crazy about his wife.

Big gut feel: One day I'll be at an Imax and watching a Bond film and he'll be in it. You watch my words. He's incredible super gold stuff.

You cannot be forgotten

Your tiny hands don't exist any more

you eyes they've shut down in sleep

your voice it's silenced now and forever

your soul's wandered away from home

Today Angels have wept

and God seems quite bereft of answers

flowers, trees, the earth itself seem lost, forlorn

for they left innocence unprotected,

vulnerable, open to hurt

Let it be torn and butchered

And we went about our business as if nothing mattered and nothing was more important than filling petrol in our cars or filing income tax returns.

In this humdrum selfish living we all do

one last flailing feeble cry for help

went unheard.

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PRAYERS FOR DEPARTED SOULS

We're back to Nithari again. Here's an excerpt from a discourse by
Swami Krishanananda of the Divine Life Society, Sivananda Ashram, Rishikesh, India (Forest University Lecture given on All Souls Day).
"Glory of Prayer for All Souls
Our prayers are capable of producing an effect immediately. Our prayers are expressions of soul-consciousness. The prayers should be absolutely selfless. It is necessary that the idea of personal relationship should be removed when such prayers are offered. When such relationship is kept up, the prayer becomes slightly tinged with selfishness and loses its value. We must offer prayers for all souls with an impartial attitude. Only then will it be extremely powerful and bring the desired result. We offer prayers not because we want anything in return for the prayers, but because we wish to radiate peace in the universe. When collective Sadhana is done, when all people sit together and pray for the sake of the departed souls, it brings peace to everyone in this world, even the person who has departed and taken birth again - in fact, all living people will be benefited. Everyone's life will become peaceful and everyone will lead a happy life, on account of our charitable acts. It is really praying for the peace of the whole universe. So, this offering of prayers on this sacred All-Souls' Day is our attempt to bring peace to the universe and to realise in our practical life the oneness that is at the background of all phenomena. We are all one, whether we are in the physical body or astral body; each should be grateful to the other; each should pray for the other; each should wish the good and happiness of the other, so that the whole universe will be a heaven of peace, a resting place of divine consciousness."